Tuesday, May 31, 2011



There are times when we need to rest more than anything else. It doesn't matter that you have to buy shoes for summer, or pick up groceries. The dust webs in the corners are not in dire need of being removed. The pile of junk in the corner isn't going anywhere.

For the past week, I've been learning to rest. I've been taking naps and avoiding the phone. I've listened to books and avoided the vacuum cleaner. I have washed dishes, but I've avoided the laundry. Because I'm learning that a healing body needs someone to let it do its thing. You see, a body is a wondrous thing; it will heal itself if given the chance. When you listen to the messages it sends out to you... you know the ones that say, "Take a nap even though it's early in the morning," or "All you really feel like eating is a bowl of fruit so don't push the oatmeal." When you listen, your body can do its job.

I'm just about over this crazy thing that hit me. The coughing is nearly gone, the fever has faded, and my voice is almost back to normal. And the best part? My brain feels like it's waking up. Yes, my brain was somewhat mushy while I was sick. Any knitting, cooking, or other activities were strictly on the easiest level possible. (Actually, Brianna did most of the cooking.)

Why am I sharing this with you all? To let you know that there is nothing wrong with asking someone else to help you with the house or driving to the grocery store.  There is nothing wrong with taking a nap as soon as the kids have left the house for school. Listen to your body and let it heal itself. You'll feel better for it.

Saturday, May 21, 2011


I had a thought yesterday while talking with a close friend and it's taken a full night's sleep to get it straightened out enough to write it down.

The earth was already "destroyed" by something from the Air (meteor causing mass extinction) and by Water (stories of floods in many religions & cultures). According to the Bible, Fire is next in line. With each destruction, life was not wiped out completely and, after a bit of time, it flourished again. (Could the destruction from Earth be the forming of the continents? The breaking apart of  Pangaea?) If this is the case, I do wonder what form Fire will take. Nuclear explosions? Anti-matter? Volcanoes? Regardless, it could be frightening to think about, if you're a fearful person.

The remaining element is Spirit. You cannot destroy with Spirit, since it is the connection with Divinity. With that in mind, the last form of "destruction" could actually be a way for humans to evolve into such a state that we realize, finally, that we have no need for the physical aspects of our lives. We could reach a point where we transcend the limitations we currently live with. What need for a body when we truly realize that we are one with God/Allah/Yahweh/Universe/etc.? What need for the physical trappings we have in our homes when we know that we are complete in our Spirit?

As humans, we feel a need to explain everything. It's one of the great things about us. It's also part of our own discontent. So, we keep digging deeper trying to find the answers, all the while falling further and further into the labyrinth of eternity. Perhaps the answer is just simply to live each day to your fullest capacity, loving your friends & family with all your heart, tasting the sunshine when it shines, smiling at the rain when it falls, feeling the joy in the flowers when they bloom, and knowing that You are a part of all that.

Whatever your belief, I hope today brings you peace and love.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Sunshine and reminiscing

For more than a day we have had sunshine. Yesterday the windows were open, letting in all the fresh breezes and helping to push out the stale winter air. My mood was lighter, my energy levels were higher and I really felt happy.

Yesterday my new phone arrived. Yes, Brianna now has my old one and will be working for me to cover the cost of it. We worked out hours and what jobs I expect her to help with and she understands that some of those jobs will change with time (mowing the lawn in winter just isn't really the thing to do). I'll admit that I'm a little nervous about going over on the minutes & such, especially since few of her friends are on Verizon, but I've shown her how to check the usage and I am hoping that will keep everything under our limits.

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At this time of the year I have a couple anniversaries that cause me to reflect on my life and how it's shaping up. Twenty-two years ago (on May 1) I left home and began my adult life. Eleven years ago (April 5) I signed a lease on my own apartment. Eleven years ago (June17) I was in a car accident that shifted my way of thinking. So many things happened during those months that changed my life in innumerable ways and when I try to focus on only one, it becomes very clear how no individual event brought me to this point. All the actions and circumstances worked together to help me grow. To help me become a better person.

And now, I am here thinking about all the wonderful people in my life. Twelve years ago I felt truly alone in this world. Today I know that there are people out there, some of whom I've never met face to face, who love me and wish me well. There are people who want to make me smile. Some who smile when they see me. There are a couple who spent years looking for me and were accepting of my lifestyle when they found me. Some who push me to grow more, and remind me when it's time to stop a moment and breathe in life. There are people I trust with my children's lives. And with my own life.

Even though my business is growing to the point of supporting Brianna & me, my greatest wealth is in the friends and loved ones I now have.

My cup runneth over.

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Stubborn? Me?

Yes, I know that there are times when I'm more stubborn than I should be, especially when I feel I am the one whose right. And so, I hold on to old ways of thinking. A while ago it was pointed out to me that I was using an uncommon pronunciation of the word "often". Some folks use "off-en" while others use "off-tin". Both are acceptable, but which is really correct? Oddly enough, this has been nagging at me just a little. (Yes, I realize there are far more important things to worry about in our world right now. Believe me, I am more worried than I care to go into about all the global happenings and the possible consequences.) So, I decided to start reading up on this word.

It seems the "t" was pronounced until the end of the 17th century. According to the Modern English Usage (1926) it was only "the academic speakers who affect a more precise enunciation than their neighbours…& the uneasy half-literates who like to prove that they can spell…." who continued to pronounce it with the "t". Rather an interesting bit of knowledge, if I do say so myself. (I found that on the PBS site.) I also looked on the Merriam-Webster site and found that it rhymes with coffin.

What now? Do I let go of the way I was raised to say the word? Or, do I grow and move forward? I guess time will tell.